The Rosyblue 90 Day Gratitude Project - Day 1

Life is so short. One day you are here, the next you are not. I don't want to go through life being stressed out over the little things. I just want to live, be happy and help my friends and family. I can't help everyone but I can start with my family and friends. 

Today is my first entry in my 90 Day Gratitude Project... 

For today...
Mood: Stressed
Why: My neck is killing me. 
What am I going to do about it: I'm calling my doctor tomorrow. 


List 3 reasons to be grateful for:

My brain. The ability to think, to learn, to know what I finally don't want out of life. 
My car. That piece of machine with four wheels that takes me to where I want to go. 
My nephew, Jordan. It's Memorial Day. Jordan was KIA 3/4/2011 in Afghanistan. Jordan is the main reason I try every day to push forward everything. Nothing is easy, but the result is worth the push. 

On this Memorial Day, I Thank my nephew, Jordan and others like him. 

One Eye Rosy

There was an organization change at work. No big deal, it happens, I work for a huge company so I understand. I'm learning all sort of new things. That's awesome, keeps my brain flowing.

Almost two weeks ago, daylight savings time kick in. With the organizational and time change, I am  messed up, can't get it together in the mornings. And the funny thing is, I am a morning person. I worry that I'm not catching on as fast as I should, given my experience.

Well, this week took the cake, took it's toll, I drove in to work later than normal and with one eye done. I forgot to apply makeup to my left eye. I didn't even know it. And this after visiting the ladies room several times in the morning. A coworker did ask if I was ok. I think she must have looked at my face and realized something was off. I took a break and went to my car. Before leaving my car, I check my hair and realized, OMG, no make up on the right eye. I quickly went to my desk and pulled out my purse from the drawer. I opened it, only to realize I forgot my makeup bag at home. I sat there and LAUGHED. Why not, I was One Eye Rosy. Goodness, life always finds a way of telling me, "see slow down, it will be just fine."

As I drove home, I started to laugh. Why not, just another crazy adventure for me. Ha-ha!!!

The Evil Drink

I'm BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

I started writing this post several months ago. I haven't been in the writing mood for awhile. Work and personal life have sucked the energy out of it. I allowed it, plain and simple. TRUTH!!!

With that said, I have a confession...sigh! It might make you sick to the stomach. Ok, here goes: I'm addicted to DIET COKE! Did you hear the music of guilt? I know, it's bad. I repeat I know it's BAD! I know everything about it is bad. BUT, how I love the burn!

Now that I have spilled the beans about my darn habit, I decided to make a huge change! The Tuesday, a day before Lent (yes, I'm catholic)- the question came up, "what are you going to give up for Lent?" I pondered the question. Most people would say, "I'm going to work on myself -like having more patience, being less judgmental, etc." ME, I try to do those things everyday. So for me, I decided to give up a specific food or drink that has been a thorn on my side for years. A specific food or drink that is just sabotaging my overall wellness - Diet Coke!

This year, I decided this is it. My approach is a bit different. I just stopped cold turkey on Ash Wednesday.
Today is March 6, 2013- NO DIET COKE!  So far, I have discovered that I'm drinking less coffee and more water. I'm not going to bash myself anymore, historically that leads to failure. All I know like everything else, I need to work at it, EVERYDAY!

Next step, I need to work on a consistent exercise program... I'm done for now. Till next time, Cheers to Great Health!

I Believe In the Good in ME!

When I wake up in the morning, I say to myself, "today is going to be a good day." And I mean it. I want nothing better than to have a great day full of laughter and joy. Most of the time, my days are good.

I have learned that each day is different. I don't fight the change, I flow with it. I see the potential in things. I see the joy in everything- well, I try.

If I have a bad day, I flow with it. I'm trying to see if I can learn from it.

I laugh every day. I remember something funny that was once said either from a friend or from family. I used to feel guilty for laughing on my days filled with sorrow, if that makes any kind of sense. But, now I know that I need to flow with it. If I want to laugh, I will. If I want to cry, I will. If I want to scream, I will.

Why? Because, I believe in the good in me... Thank you Patti Digh.

A Real Nightmare!

Sometimes I get in my car and scream, "SOMEONE PLEASE WAKE ME UP FROM THIS DREAM. IT'S A NIGHTMARE THAT DOESN'T END!!!"

But, it's no dream, it's a real nightmare.

It's been 4 months, when will I feel normal again! "Jordan, your Aunt Ana, had a bad day today."

The Wild Ride of 2011

It's been awhile... It seems that I say this every couple of months. But, like before, if I'm not in the mood to write, then the end result will be CRAP!!!

This year has been a challenge. I'm not ready to share but will soon. All I can say is that 2011 is turning out to be a Wild Ride with many twists, turns and sadness.

I feel that I'm hitting rock bottom. And rock bottom is simply forcing me to face my many fears. No, I'm not homeless or being thrown in jail, nothing that extreme. I'm being force to just face the challenges that life brings. I know I'm being vague, but I need to get this out.
Life is wonderful, fabulous. I'm here so I'm grateful.

June 21st is the beginning of the Summer of 2011. I can't wait. It's my favorite time of year. I love the long days. My hope is that I can use the summer to encourage me to reevaluate my existence in this wonderful, challenging world. The Wild Ride of the Summer is the perfect beginning to free myself.

We never stop learning and changing- this I know for sure! So Viva the Wonderful World of Life! And Cheers to the Summer of 2011.

More to come, so stay turned...

The Curly Windshield Wipers

It's been awhile since my last post, but honestly if I'm not in the mood to write, then the end result is always crap.

I usually drive in to work around 5:15 a.m. every morning- since I work with east coast peeps at times. Well, this past Thursday, it was raining. Raining enough that I noticed my windshield wipers weren't doing their job. My 35 minute drive to work was pure misery. I finally got to work by the grace of light traffic and being super careful.

Around mid morning, I noticed it stopped raining. I walked out to my car to take a good look at the wipers. What I saw was just shocking, the wipers were curling up, like my curly hair. I was appalled! I realized that I had to get the wipers replaced a.s.a.p. it was going to rain that very night and the forecast said rain all weekend.

As I walked back to my office, I was in deep thought asking myself, "when was the last time these wipers were replaced???" I just couldn't remember, so sad. Well, I called my local Acura dealer to see if the wipers for my car were in stock. The wipers were there and after promising to be around 4 p.m. I hung up.

As I drove up to the dealership, I said to myself, "My cute car is a mess outside and inside." Goodness, I'm tardy with everything. I have been meaning to clean my car for weeks. Anywho back to my story...

I asked an employee of the Dealership that I needed new wipers. He said to park, purchase the wipers and come back. He will replace them himself. I did just that.

I gave this nice man the new wipers. He had a rough time removing the first wiper (the long one). He was turning red at the face. He turn to me and asked, "huh, when was the last time you replaced the wipers?" I said, "I don't know, perhaps a year." He said, "ah, no. I think it's been awhile." I admitted to this nice man that it was probably over 2 years since I last replaced the wipers.

I asked him to check the tire pressure since I have been wanting to do that myself for weeks, even though I don't have a clue how to do it. I thanked the nice man and drove off.

I got to thinking as I drove home. This "Curly Windshield Wiper" experience has opened my eyes. I have been putting things off for months. My brain has been so cluttered with crap that it's making me a little absent minded. I got home and opened a notebook. I wrote all the things that I needed to accomplish that I have been putting off.

Is it working??? Well, I knocked off three items from the list this morning! I will continue to add to the list and cross any accomplishments goals off. I feel better about myself. Who knew that a little rain and a pair of worn out windshield wipers would get my brain flowing again!

Hugs and cheers,

Rosy!!!